I have to vent. My ex-husband is such a stingy bastard. He won't pay for any extra-curricular activities for our daughter. He won't pay for the added cost of full-day kindergarten (and would you believe the law does not require him to pay for half because he is not the custodial parent!). Next year he will make $180,000 +; I will make a fraction of that as a professor. I am buying Folgers (I know, cry me a river bc I can't afford Starbucks anymore -- such first-world problems I have!) and counting every penny. Christmas will be rather thin over here.
Now for the thing that has my blood boiling: yesterday I got a statement from the bank through which we financed the car that he is driving. He PAID THE ENTIRE BALANCE remaining on the car. In cash. Now he has no car payments. I am struggling to pay for basic expenses and to make a monthly payment on my HUGE legal debt; meanwhile, he can just WRITE A CHECK to pay off his car. No fair.
A friend who visited last summer, when I had just kicked him out and was really weepy all the time, made a really great comment. Cosmic justice takes a really long time, she said. That's my mantra today, because it seems like life is so easy for him right now and that he suffers no negative consequences for all of his dishonorable, unethical actions.
Final thought: I really want to redefine what "wealth" means to me. I am rich in friends, in family, in work I feel passionate about, in a life worth living. I have everything that I need, which is so much more than what most people in the world have.
Russian poetry fix
Wild honey has the scent of freedom,
Dust--the sunshine beam,
Violet--the mouth of a girl,
And gold--has nothing.
Minionette, the scent of water
And love--the apple.
But forever we learnt,
That blood has but the scent of blood.
-- Anna Akhmatova, 1933
Dust--the sunshine beam,
Violet--the mouth of a girl,
And gold--has nothing.
Minionette, the scent of water
And love--the apple.
But forever we learnt,
That blood has but the scent of blood.
-- Anna Akhmatova, 1933
Saturday, December 13, 2008
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